Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Loss ... again ...


My newest grandson, Dominic Keith Smith.  So tiny, so perfect.  He was born August 14, 2014 at 9:45pm.  He gained his Angel wings that same night ... born sleeping.  He wasn't due until Christmas, but just couldn't wait that long to make his grand entrance and leave his little footprints on our hearts and minds.

I know that God has his reasons for sending us gifts and then asking for them in return.  But twice?  And to the same Mommy and family?  It's so hard for to her to comprehend that what should have been the happiest day has turned into yet another time of loss, grief, and planning a funeral for her littlest Angel.  I pray for her each day for understanding and comfort, but I know, from experience, that although it does get easier, the pain and loss never goes away.

"Dominic, you will always be loved and remembered fondly.  For a short time you were part of our lives but you will always be part of our hearts.  Gabriel, take care of your little brother and watch over your Mommy, Blake and Jaxson as they learn to say goodbye again."

Signed ... with love and tears




Day 2 & Thoughts on Day 1

Up early once again - not a bad thing.  I'm able to sign in to my online class (Human Resource Management) and get started on it.  Two classes today (Marketing & Small Business Management) and I'm ready to get them rolling.

Yesterday's class (Business Law) went really well.  Full roster - 24 students and one really fun teacher.  She used to practice law and has taught it for the past 13 years.  She uses a lot of stories so I think I'll get a lot out of it.

Students were really happy I had the office open for the afternoon.  Had quite a few coming in to use the computers and the copy machine.  You see all kinds at a community college - new students right out of high school, some coming back after not doing so well at the university level, and quite a few like me - non-traditional, older students, starting again after many years to find a new profession when the old one dried up or to finish what they started so long ago.  

It can be scary, after being out of school for over 30 years, to come back and start all over.  But I am having so much fun and I love learning again.  And I'm finding out that I'm darn good at it :)

Taking my Cricket (machine that cuts things out for me) to cut out the 50 letters that make up the new name of the office: Center for Workforce Development & Entrepreneurship.  My hand would be cramping cutting those out by hand!! LOL!  I have to design the new board in the hallway and the first step is getting the new name out there.  Transition - interesting, confusing, and full of learning new things and people.

I hope you all have a great day ... I plan on it.  

Peace ~

Monday, August 18, 2014

1st Day Back - Early Morning

7:45 on Monday morning - alarm is about ready to go off but I've been up since 6:15.  Must be anticipation of the new day, new classes, and working in a somewhat new office.

I've worked in the Career Center at Kansas City Kansas Community College since June 2013 as either a student worker or a summer worker.  But after July 24th of this year, both my director and office secretary have retired.  The office is being taken over by the Business Division and has been renamed: Center for Workforce Development and Entrepreneurship (CWD&E - as I so fondly call it).

New management, new ideas, new hours (not even sure what they are at the moment) ... and then me, the only "old" person from the "old" office.  I seriously think that's why they kept me around, but I'm okay with that. I'm used to the way the office works and hopefully that will be helpful in the transition stages.

I start my next to last semester at KCKCC and really excited about it.  I am taking Business Law I, Human Resource Management, Small Business Management, and Marketing.  I'm working towards my AAS, Business Administration degree and should graduate in May, 2015.  This is all lecture classes this semester (3 on-ground and 1 online) so it will be a lot of work, written and reading.  

So if I slack off writing on my blog or my posts start to sound educational, that is the reason!

I hope you all have a great week and when this day is over, I'll let you know how it went.

Peace ~

Monday, August 4, 2014

Another Monday's Ramblings

Week 2 of vacation has started - and may I say rather early.  Dogs woke me up at 3:30 a.m. to do their thing and alas, I couldn't get back to sleep.  So here I am. 

The temps last week didn't make for easy work in the kitchen or anywhere else, so needless to say, I didn't get a lot done on my to do list.

Hopefully this week is better.

Getting books today for my next semester.  Thank God for grants or I don't know how I'd pay for $800-1000 worth of textbooks.  I hated having to take out loans to help us out, but with only working part time and hubby not being able to work (long story, can't go into details here), I didn't have a choice.  Two more semesters and then hopefully find a job that will help me make those payments.

I am really looking forward to this semester actually.  Ready for my classes to get started and finish learning what I need to get this degree.  Been a long time coming (going back after 30 years) but something that needed to be done.  When I lost my job in November 2011, I realized that if I was going to get any further than I was, I needed as least an Associate's to get there.  Will I go back and get my Bachelor's?  Haven't decided yet.  At my age, getting this much was quite the ordeal.

Well anyway, guess my Monday has begun - hopefully this week is fruitful and I can get done what needs to be before classes start on the 18th.

Take care - I hope you all have a great week!

Peace ~

 



 

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Day 3

After a bit of turmoil, day 2 was finally over and in the books.  I looked forward to sleep and starting anew on day 3.  

Darn insomnia ... makes starting day 3 not as easy.

I've suffered with this malady for many years - at one time, barely, if at all, sleeping through the night.  An hour here and there, but never a successful night of complete sleep.  I was younger then and dealing with life on 3-4 hours of sleep was nothing I couldn't handle.

But ... I've gotten older and fewer than 6-7 hours of sleep and this chubby lady doesn't do well.  Just not feeling it today, but I'm going to persevere.

July is almost over - can't believe summer has flown by so fast.  But ready for August and the start of new classes on the 18th.  My last two semesters of going back to school before my dream is realized and I finally, at long last, have my degree.

Well, my friends, I'm going to peruse the computer a bit and then I think I'll head out to the kitchen and see what smells I can make waft throughout the house ... chocolate chip cookie dough and the delight of pumpkin bread await me (along with last night's dishes).

Peace ~

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Day 2 - Part 2 ... lol

The zucchini bread is out of the oven and, if I don't say so myself, it's gorgeous! I've made other breads but this is the first for this. 

And a funny ... was gonna do spaghetti tonight, but after tasting the meat (ground turkey cooked with onions in water and beef base), it has the most wonderful broth so added cannelini beans to it and gonna cook noodles later to add. Not usually something I'd fix in the summer, but couldn't resist after tasting the broth. 

Tomorrow is pumpkin bread and chocolate chip cookies ... and who knows what else. Want to make some yeast bread this week too. Don't know if I'll get to that yet or not. Love homemade bread. 

Ok, enough babbling for one day ... hope you all are having a great day too!

Peace ~

Day 2 of my Vacation

Well Day 2 has found me busy again. Baked 5 dozen oatmeal cookies, made double batch of chocolate chip cookie dough to bake off tomorrow, baked 2 loaves of zucchini bread, got the meat ready for spaghetti sauce for tonight's dinner, have beans soaking to put with pork tomorrow and the only thing left is to make garlic cheese biscuits to go with the spaghetti tonight. 

Whew ... gonna need a break from my vacation when I'm done if I keep this pace up!!! Oh well - time to relax finally ... think I deserve it! LOL!

Take care ...

Peace ~

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Sunday ... another hot one

It's supposed to be another hot one today, but not as bad as yesterday temperature or humidity wise.  But still hot.

I need to work in the kitchen but even with the door open and the fans going, it's just too darn stuffy.  So instead, I'm sitting in my room with the window unit and doing work on the computer (and playing!).

Sunday is meant for a rest day ... and tomorrow begins my 3 week break until college classes start again in mid-August.  So I guess I'll take advantage of it. I have plenty of work staring me in the face.

Have a blessed day and week ...

Peace out ~

Friday, July 25, 2014

Still here ...

I haven't posted anything in a while.  Life has been busy, but I really want to get back to doing this on a more regular basis.

I'm going to be adding some new, different types of posts to it ... refashioning, crafting, sewing, cooking, homesteading, photography, etc.  I hope you enjoy it.

The next few posts are some I am bringing over from an older blog I used to have. 

Happy Reading!
P.

God, It Hurts



God, It Hurts

I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I Know'
I said 'God I cry alot'
And God said 'That's why I gave you tears'
I said 'God I get so depressed'
And God said 'That why I gave you sunshine'
I said God I feel Alone'
And God said 'That's why I gave you loved ones'
I said 'God my loved one is dead'
And God said'I watched mine nailed to the cross'
I said God 'Where are they? '
And God said 'Mine is on my right and yours is in the light.
I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I know'

--Anonymous

Practice Makes Perfect



This is another essay I wrote for my English class.  The topic was “This I Believe In.”  I got a perfect 50/50 – A for this one – I was very pleased and I know the three women in this essay would have been too.

Practice Makes Perfect

I strongly believe practice makes perfect. I learned this from three people early in my life: my mother, Grandma Allen, and Mrs. Mengel, my piano teacher.
Whether it was learning my ABC’s or my multiplication tables, my mother firmly believed and instilled in me if I practiced them over and over and over again, I would master these basic skills. And I found later in life, when I needed them the most, they came to me as easy as drinking a glass of water. When other kids were outside playing tag in the warm weather or bundled up in snowsuits sledding down the hill, I was at our black and white checkered Formica top kitchen table practicing my “2 x 2” and “principal vs. principle” until I knew them by heart.

In sixth grade, I competed in and won the local Spelling Bee Championship. My mother and I drilled over and over the words I would be given in this event and as they were presented to me at the Spelling Bee, what she taught me flowed effortlessly in my mind and out through my mouth. When I left home and started my family, I left my trophy with my mother as a tribute to the many hours she spent making sure I didn’t forget.

My Grandma Allen lived in Benito, Manitoba, Canada. My family visited her every summer from 1963 when I made my first trip on the train until 1978, when I saw her for the final time in the nursing home as Alzheimer’s overtook her brilliant mind. I tried to learn as much as I could from her each time we visited or on the rare occasion she came to stay with us.

My grandma taught me to crochet, sew, and cross stitch. I am left handed and my mother didn’t think she could teach me. My grandma taught me by sitting across from me so it looked like she was performing these simple tasks just like me. I have the first quilt we made, a simple, multi-colored, nine-patch, as well as the set of white, flour sack dish towels with the days of the week in counted cross stitch.
 
Grandma Allen also took the time to teach me to measure flour and sugar and other ingredients to make cookies, cakes and breads just like hers. She trusted me with time tested recipes, handed down from her mother and grandmother. One of my favorites is the Artisan White Bread and Dinner Rolls. I use her techniques to blend the yeast and warmed water and let the dough rise to hear that perfect “thump” before you place it in the oven and bake it to a hard, golden brown crust.

Out of all of the people in my life who taught me the importance of practice makes perfect, my piano teacher, Mrs. Bea Mengel brought the real meaning home every week. I began at age four, trying to sound out the melodies my sister played on her flute. My mom called Mrs. Mengel to see if she would take me on as a student. Although she normally started her piano students at age six, she made an exception after hearing me play and welcomed me to her methods of learning scales and arpeggios. She didn’t rap my small knuckles with the wooden ruler when I missed a note, but instead taught with love and understanding, instilling in me a pure love of music, not just learning notes on a page.

Mrs. Mengel called me a music prodigy: able to read a sheet of music the first time I saw it, having perfect pitch to mimic note for note the same she would play on her piano, and playing Bach, Beethoven, Chopin or Debussy with the ease of her older students. My mother didn’t have to beg me to practice. I was willing to spend an hour or more each day at home eagerly learning the new songs I was given. I spent 14 years with Mrs. Mengel, learning to play the piano, organ, harpsichord, and she was my first vocal coach as well.

I still play piano today and have taught a few students myself. I enjoy relaxing to classical pieces that still roll off my fingers like they did those many years ago I was first taught. Now I play a bit differently – more of my own style, a little blues and rock snuck in there between the Bach and the church hymns my mother used to listen to me play. Today I don’t play to make my mother or Mrs. Mengel happy; today, I play because I love it.

I know that practice makes perfect is an old adage, but learning the basics of life and hard work from my mother, Grandma Allen and Mrs. Mengel, I firmly believe that the path I have taken in my life began with what I learned from each of these women.

Quietness



Sometimes when I’m quiet you think I’m upset
But I just need some private time to be by myself
To listen to the thoughts I have and try to sort them out
To figure out where I’m headed and learn something no doubt

A lot of times I’m talking just to listen to what I say
Wondering what the day might bring and the part I’ll play
I think someone has a sense of humor to let me think like this
Why can’t I just be left alone in my bit of quietness?

I’m left to think about the news of the day both happy and sad
Some of it makes me smile but most makes me mad
I look up at the sky and wonder why it goes on and on
All the pain and suffering from what seems like dusk to dawn

The shootings in Columbine where many lives lay to waste
The fire in a little house that leaves an awful taste
The angel who rose to heaven because of careless play
One who was too young to ponder where life would lead on another day

At times I get so angry that I shake my fist and shout
Please stop the madness that abounds and take away my doubt
I want so much to care and love and bring peace to a warring world
But all I see is bloodshed and hate towards a flag unfurled

Religions become battlegrounds for those who just don’t care
Someone walks into a building brandishing a gun, pointing it in the air
Where the bullets fly and the bodies fall no one is privy to know
But in the end a child pays for all the sins that we bestow

I run around in circles trying to figure it all out
Crying in pain because no one talks, they only know how to shout
I cry for the ones who can’t and pray for the ones that do
I want so much to help bring them all a life shiny and new

But I am only one person, a single, living, being
One who sits in her private space wondering, hearing, seeing
One little voice in a broken world wanting to sing out loud
To be heard raising a song of praise that will fly above the cloud

Singing a song to tell the world everything is okay
A melodious tune to quiet the soul and bring peace to every day
A word or a phrase bringing to mind what’s in each and every heart
Now is the time to begin again, to make a brand new start

Quietness you ask as I sit and ponder about the world today
What’s wrong with a bit of quietness like the sun on a rainy day
Or the stars at night as they shine so bright and light the path I trod
To let me know all is right in the world and all is right with God

Penny Peterson, 1999